determine that

DETERMINE THAT

each year i list my new years resolutions
since i do a blog and have done so the last 3 years
this is my fourth resolution day
but
since i blog them they are on the internet for everyone to see
and im surprised my wife she hasnt gone back and said
hey
you resolved last year that you would do this
and you havent
and
you resolved the year before that you would do the same
but
wait
you resolved the year before that also
so this year maybe ill resolve again and get it done

so i went to google and found a synonym for resolve
its determine
so
this year i will determine that ill do these things
seems i have a way out if i used this synonym instead

i can determine not to do it if i want to

so i determined

1  to be happy
so far so good
some melancholy occurs when my annual diagnosis date hits
and when i think of my younger brothers final year
and when i think of my future prospects
but overall im happy and resolve to stay that way

2  to stay as healthy as i can doing all those things that i
need to do to stave off the alzheimers thing
and i might add its the same you should do to stay healthy
shall i list them
be happy control your blood pressure cholesterol diabetes weight
exercise control depression and anxiety eat healthy get restful
sleep stay mentally active dont smoke drink litely
be at peace with yourself and your life

3  exercise regularly
i do this working here at the country n and at habitat
i do need more aerobic exercise
i have a 1 mile path mowed in my pastures i like to walk in
as do our dogs
this one ill determine it

4  volunteer
i will continue to do habitat for humanity work
im doing a landscape job today as a matter of fact
at one of the new houses
ill resolve that one
ill will also do meals on wheels and try to do more to get
people to donate to this cause since the government has
cut so much of their funds
what a great use of our tax money to feed some of these
needy folks
heck we waste so much elsewhere cant we throw some
their way

5  to continue to preach the organic and green gospel to
folks and get as many to do things this way as possible
im determined on this one

6  to continue to talk about alzheimers disease
i will do my walks again this year all four of them
volunteer for the alzheimers association
i also will continue to talk to anyone who will listen
about alzheimers disease
i have at least two or more talks scheduled this winter spring
i also plan to enter a treatment study hopefully not as a control
this year receiving treatment i hope that will slow things down

7  and i noticed each year one of the last things i list is to
lose 5 lbs well now i think its 10 lbs
amazing what rupturing a disk will do to your activity level
and consequently do to you weight
this year ill determine it

8  i looked at the list from previous years of the projects i
want to finish here at the country n and it looks like i havent
done any of them yet
i did start some of them and have them halfway done
i dont want to run out of things to do that why

ill resolve this one

9   maybe travel more
since my ruptured disk this has been more uncomfortable
to do but its getting better
ill resolve this one

10  then last i want to keep my wife she happy
that may be the most  important one
im not sure how happy she was in this picture
or if she was just thinking
i both resolve and determine this one

have a happy and prosperous new year
from

the organicgreen doctor

thinking of ben, happy new year

THINKING OF BEN

after i wrote my blog yesterday and after i watched
the video that ben breedlove did and after reading about
him and his family and his doctors who were visibly affected
by bens death
i sat in my dark living room looking out at this view
with my wood burning stove as the only source of light
in the room
i thought of other teenagers and friends ive known who died like he
did at such a young age
some from car wrecks, cancer, heart disease and from
other health conditions
i think i remember them all
i think about my life and how i guess im lucky in that i did get
to live past my teenage years and got to do what i always wanted to
do in life
yes i am lucky
when i die i wont get to have the experience ben had as i will
probably not be cognitively capable when my time comes
guess thats a trade off
he experienced it but i got to live my life longer

i have now sat here in the dark for awhile
now the sun is rising over the distant hills and the sky is bright
with it azure blueness and brightness
as the sun shines as it rises over the horizon
i realize that i can see this brightness every morning as i sit
here looking out at the horizon
i cant see bens brightness he saw but i can see the brightness
form a new day
and i get to see it every morning

we should all pause watch his video and think about our lives
and our futures
try to make a difference in someones life every day
you only get one chance
ben apparently took a lot from his short life
we have more time
can we do better

donate, give, help some one, smile, be nice, make a difference
think of ben today

i know i will

HAPPY NEW YEAR
wishing you all a happy new years
dont forget the blackeyed peas on new years day
for good luck

the organicgreen doctor