thinking of ben, happy new year

THINKING OF BEN

after i wrote my blog yesterday and after i watched
the video that ben breedlove did and after reading about
him and his family and his doctors who were visibly affected
by bens death
i sat in my dark living room looking out at this view
with my wood burning stove as the only source of light
in the room
i thought of other teenagers and friends ive known who died like he
did at such a young age
some from car wrecks, cancer, heart disease and from
other health conditions
i think i remember them all
i think about my life and how i guess im lucky in that i did get
to live past my teenage years and got to do what i always wanted to
do in life
yes i am lucky
when i die i wont get to have the experience ben had as i will
probably not be cognitively capable when my time comes
guess thats a trade off
he experienced it but i got to live my life longer

i have now sat here in the dark for awhile
now the sun is rising over the distant hills and the sky is bright
with it azure blueness and brightness
as the sun shines as it rises over the horizon
i realize that i can see this brightness every morning as i sit
here looking out at the horizon
i cant see bens brightness he saw but i can see the brightness
form a new day
and i get to see it every morning

we should all pause watch his video and think about our lives
and our futures
try to make a difference in someones life every day
you only get one chance
ben apparently took a lot from his short life
we have more time
can we do better

donate, give, help some one, smile, be nice, make a difference
think of ben today

i know i will

HAPPY NEW YEAR
wishing you all a happy new years
dont forget the blackeyed peas on new years day
for good luck

the organicgreen doctor

new gene, ben

NEW GENE
many of you who read this blog know that i carry the
double allele homozygous double hit sucky combo genotype
for alzheimers called the apoe 4
this was inherited from my parents
both parents and my younger brother had or have alzheimers disease
(although having this gene doesnt mean you will get alzheimers but
it increases the chances that youll get the disease)

well i have determined that i have another gene and it appears that
i may be the only one in the family that has the dominant form of
the gene

the gene is called the napgene
there has not been a lot of research done on this gene but i think
i may start a case study of one ie me

the napgene causes me to take naps twice a day
once right after lunch and
the other time is right after the evening meal when the good shows
or ball games come on
the dvr has made a huge difference in my life
i dvr the night time show i was going to watch and i instead watch it
at lunch time when the napgene shows its effect again

i even have to prep myself for big events like last nights holiday bowl
i take a long nap later than usual the afternoon of the event
then last night for example i was wide awake when the game started
now
who won that game
will find out later today at noon naptime

i know this napgene didnt just start because i retired or because my
hair has turned grey
it started turning grey in my late 20s

those of you who know me well know that ive had this napgene for years
have never been able to watch saturday night live
my medical school friend had a fantastic movie room that we would go to
see a movie there
never ever did i ever make it through a movie
ok i never made it through the introduction part of the movie
even slept through independence day at full volume that made the seats
vibrate
so they tell me

how i made it through medical school, residency, all night call nights, all
night er work i never know
something must have shut off the expression of the napgene during that
time

know my brothers have the napgene as we easily demonstrated it after the
thanksgiving and christmas meals
but i think i have the double gene and they have the milder single gene

napgene dont think i want treatment for this one

BEN
IF YOU HAVE NOT SEEN THIS VIDEO
STOP
GET A HAND FULL OF TISSUES
AND WATCH IT
click so it fits your full screen

ben an austin teen had hcm hypertrophic cardiomyopathy
he had several cardiac arrests and even had an implantable
defibrillator pacemaker

he talks about his experiences with note cards
this was his last video

ben breedlove got his wish one week later when he had a
cardiac arrest and died on christmas day
rip
:(

the organicgreen doctor