deerslayer

DEERSLAYER

thats what we call my wife she now
the deerslayer
no she didnt go deer hunting and shoot her first deer

she out of compassion for a yearly deer
did what was right
to put the deer down

on her walk along a 100 acre ranch land that surrounds
the country n
she walks the fence line which offers good views of surrounding
lands and the longhorns that are kept on the ranch next to this

on the walk she encountered a yearly deer
hung in a barb wire fence

(this is not the picture of the deer we encountered)

who probably had been there for awhile
seeing how torn up the ground was along the fence
and how worn out she was

she called me to come help
so i drove not walked like she did
and found the yearly with her back leg caught in the strand
of barbwire
her lower leg was partially amputated and she was bleeting painfully

i cut her out of the barbwire
she fell to the ground unable to stand but instead crawled like
you might see in some horror movie where someone was
being tortured

we know the deer was domed to die that day
from dehydration
from infection from the exposed bones
or eventually at night by the coyotes who were
destined by nature to come

we knew the humane thing to do was to put her down
as we say in the south

we did have a gun but we gave it back to the previous owner
even if we had a gun which i could have borrowed from a neighbor
i am so remote from hunting
thats 25 years since my younger brother and i went squirrel hunting
together
yes ive hunted deer before and i have killed deer
both legally and illegally
but i dont enjoy hunting anymore

but i understand how nature works as we see it every week
around here
we can hear the coyotes in the distance when they make their kills
and have heard our chickens being attacked at night
sounds like someone getting murdered

my wife she contacted the sheriffs department to help as their
animal control officer lives about a mile away
guess it was during their morning coffee break in their cozy office
they said let nature takes its course
no compassion in that office

other nearby ranchers were worried about shooting a deer out
of season and on someone elses property
even a nearby taxidermist and deer butcherer wouldnt either

our cowboy rancher neighbor was ill and in bed or he would have
done it for us

eventually my wife she contacted a friend who is a cowgirl friend
who keeps her horse in a nearby ranch
her daughters boyfriends dad hunts a lot and does youth hunts
with kids

they came out and put the deer out of its misery and its eventually
terrible demise at the hands of nature

it was dressed and taken back home to be used as food
instead of being left for coyotes or buzzards

thanks to my wife she for being compassionate and persistent to
end the suffering for this deer

shes not really a deerslayer
she just compassionate

the organicgreen doctor

the superbowl

the SUPER bowl

now that was what a super bowl should be like
it was definitely a two eyelid open game
while i must admit i fell asleep with 3.5 minutes to go
but
i was saved by the dvr
woke up after the game and immediately rewound it
and watch the exciting ending
that was a long 3.5 minutes of playing time
it seemed like 30 minutes

the game had brothers
i know a harbargh won
but was it jim or john

the game had two good quarterbacks
one exciting
well caterprenicker
i cant ever spell his name
looked like a rookie in the first half
but an extra 30 minutes of rest in the second half
i guess it calmed it down
they kicked a$$ the second half but not hard enough

then mr calm guy blanco
well thats how i remember his name
like the town near austin

who it seems no one can give him
credit for being good
he was playing for $20 million dollars
thats what he may get next year in his contract
guess i would play good too
but he is steady and does his job
a workmans type quarterback

i know its flacco and kaepernick


then there was beyonce
or bounce as i like to call her
was she hot
who cares if she lipsynched it which she didnt

move over madonna
youve been out done plus

bounce blew out all the circuits to the stadium with that
performance and delayed the game
im glad
i needed that extra 30 minutes to get my bp and heart rate
back down to normal
definitely a 2 thumbs up performance

then there was that second half comeback by san francisco
why does that always seem to happen in sports when there
is a delay
the team thats doing good doesnt
the team thats doing bad gets better


then the commercials
my two favorites were the farmers commercial with paul harvey
thought he was dead
it would have been better without that truck at the end
guess it was the gardening bug i have that made me like it

then the one i liked the best was
the commercial where the old people escaped from the
nursing home and had an all night partying night
and getting tattoes

move over milleniums
us baby boomers remember the 60s and 70s
and well not go out quietly

overall best super bowl in a while

ill celebrate
by getting me my tattoo
im inspired now

the organicgreen doctor

my brother

MY BROTHER


this is what my younger brother did for years
as a fireman
he retired after twenty years as a captain
then


after retirement he worked for several years as
a deputy sheriff who traveled with a drug dog
all the time
he served a rural area by himself and one of his
dogs were always by side
he could signal the dog who stayed in the car when
he stopped someone but a signal brought the
dog out immediately
he and his dog found a lost 5 year old once and was
used multiple times to track escaped prisoners or
lost persons

so thats his face my brother
a father a fireman a policeman
a hardworking likable friendly helpful person

this has all now been stolen from him by the disease
alzheimers



its a slow process sometimes
it steals your ability to drive how to operate the car
you cant find the keys
you cant find anything
you are lost inside
your family feels you slowly drifting away
daddy honey where are you
we miss you so much and want you back

but alzheimers you see is unforgiving
you dont ever come back you just continue going away
until its all over

these are the things i think about a lot
especially like i was two weekends ago
visiting with my brother in the alzheimers center
the stare the alzheimers stare he has now
its the same that my mother had
the occasional smile so you know hes in there somewhere

that robust fireman
that honorable deputy sheriff who was fair and honest
and who did good things when he rescued that little girl
and when he protected us
now he is reduced by this terrible disease to a core of himself

its so sad so sad
i think about him a lot and even dream about him a lot

heck last night he and i went with my historian brother who was
driving a large truck cross country
we had some good adventures together like we did when
we were younger some we can never talk about
then i woke up
and i came back to reality

alzheimers has and is stealing him away
like it stole my mother and started stealing my dad

there is a chance
and time will tell
when it will begin to steal me

you know
im ready if that happens
it seems mine may be a slow process
at least for now
so i have time to enjoy things and to do things i might not have
done if i didnt know
i wish he would have known too so
he could have extracted more like i am from life

at least i know
and can deal with it
its the not knowing and having it sneak up on you and your family
i think is worse

so brother
we miss you
we think of you every day
but i remember the fireman the deputy sheriff the father you were

love

the organicgreen doctor