dear ms b-a fast year

DEAR MS B-A FAST YEAR

ms b
its been a real fast year
since they rolled out that little bundle joy
from the delivery room

my how you have changed
eating real food
making talking noises
standing
grabbing everything
love that laugh you have

cant wait until when you finally let go and take off
my oh my
life will change then for mom and dad

all those things you have been wanting to get
ahold of
are yours for the taking

of course
now here at the country n we are looking
forward to walking you down to
the garden to play in the dirt

maybe pick a tomato or two

maybe walk down to the chicken coop
to talk to the chickens
pick up all those eggs each evening
maybe even cook one that you picked
so you can understand what farm to plate means

maybe walk out to the pastures
to pick a wildflower or two
i can see you sitting in that field of bluebonnets
maybe ill photo shop ;you into that picture

maybe ride in my old beat up black farm truck
maybe just bump around in the pasture in it

maybe ride on the john deere lawn tractor
like these kids did that day
and like numerous other kids have been doing over
the years
prepping for your day on this ride

maybe traveling down to the river with our two dogs
marley and maverick
talking to the horses on the way
maybe get a hee haw from the donkey also
maybe see a deer or a turkey
maybe let you sit in the flowing water
all those kids before you love this
maybe throw some rocks
when you get older maybe get you to learn to skip some

maybe throw a stick in the water for marley to swim
after
im sure he would love that

so ms b
now that you are almost a year now
you have entered that stage where you can start exploring more
so
maybe
when you come to visit us we will line you up for all
these maybes
maybe is right

have a happy first birthday this week
we got plans for you girl

the organicgreen doctor

rest in peace

REST IN PEACE
thats what i said out loud to myself
this morning
when i read the posting on her blog
missing jim confessions of an alzheimers wife

here is the posting


JAMES BRADLEY GARNER 
April 7, 1962 – April 2, 2016 
missing jim

now on last friday
i wrote a blog about his story
how it bothered me following his course
that downward course
into the alzheimers abyss
with
its emotional and financial debris that is left in
its path

the suffering is now over for
jim
stricken in his late 40s
while in his prime
working
coaching
being a husband
having retired from the military a few years ago
physically very active
a loving caring person

i can remember the employees where my younger brother
stayed before he died
they would say
early on
he looks so young
he looks so healthy

so it was with jim
then
as the disease makes its road trip around the brain
destroying bits and pieces
so the parts cant communicate together

you get left with
what jim was like last week

a sad picture to see

now
he is at peace
she is at peace but is forever scarred
it will take months to years for her to recover
physically mentally financial
never fully recovering though

his kids wont have their dad at their games
at their graduations
at their marriages
at their birth of his grandkids
gone forever
but
at least they have his memories and know he loved them much

i wish to personally thank karen garner for writing her story
and his story with this awful journey
i know it was painful for me to read it
im sure it was even more painful for her to write
despite being in the midst of this awful abyss

thank you
we all have benefited from your writings

now
all i can ask of all of you
help us find a cure for this awful disease
this alzheimers thing

we are close
real close
we need your help

donate and volunteer with your local alzheimers organization
here in cental texas it is the
alzheimers texas
at
www.txalz.org



let your congresspersons know you support more alzheimers funding

the organicgreen doctor

alzheimers news-its time

ALZHEIMERS NEWS-ITS TIME

one of the blogs i follow is called missing jim
confessions of an alzheimers wife

its the story
a true one
of a families journey with the diagnosis of a young dad in
his early 50s with alzheimers disease

now ive read this and even commented on this blog
several times over the last few years
following his downfall into that alzheimers abyss

seeing
how it affects and mostly overwhelms the wife
named karen
she is well known in the alzheimers advocacy arena
for her support of alzheimers research caregiver support
alzheimers financial support etc
and
how their kids are affected

we who have read this blog for awhile
usually dread reading the next one
since
those of us who know about alzheimers
know that things dont ever get better
and
they havent

i have read her blogs and cried multiple times


missingjim.com

i think this blog chronicling jims decline
is bothersome to me
since
it seems to mimic the decline of my younger brothers
into that abyss
seeing how bad he got
how much it affected his family
emotionally and financially

now in this last blog
jim has reached
that time

when it is time to let go
its hard

i can remember seeing my younger brother a month
before he died
thinking as i sat outside with him with a brother and sister
seeing him not able to communicate with us
unable really to eat and swallow well
alzheimers does that eventually
takes over all the brain
so that rudimentary functions are eventually wiped out

as i sat and watched him that day
i thought to myself
please dont let me get this far
take me sooner please

later back in my motel room
i sat down and cried
i knew that would be the last time i would ever see him

so is jim
where he was
in those final days
before death will take him
give him and his family some relief

yes
this is an awful disease
i wouldnt wish on my worst enemy


yes
i dont want to go there
please spare us


i will speak at 900 am on my involvement with alzheimers studies
at the alzheimers disease center at ut southwestern
and
on several new drug treatment studies that show promise
to finding a treatment and maybe a cure if we are lucky

the organicgreen doctor