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i am a family physician who was diagnosed with
early mild cognitive impairment(mci) amnestic type on december 21, 2010
this is a precursor to alzheimers disease
because of this diagnosis i have opted to stop practicing medicine
this blog will be about my journey with this disease
please feel free to follow me along this path
i will continue blogging on organic gardening, green living,
solar power, rainwater collection, and healthy living
i will blog on these plus other things noted to be interesting

Wednesday, August 31, 2022

my story revisited #148-seizing the moment


this morning i woke up at 300 am just like i did 8 years ago when i wrote this blog
i still wake up early every morning thanks to the aricept or donepezil im on for alzheimers

that day i enjoyed the birds achirping
it that day was 80 degrees at 3am and muggy like only texas and the south can get in the summer if the humidity rises

today here in santa barbara it will start a warming trend that will get us up to the 90s
most folks here do not have air conditioning so these days when its warm reminds me of those hot summer days in texas

i remember that day i wrote about in my blog
i remember that presentation i and the caregiver gave
it was one that the moderator had to finally shut down questions from the audience since we had ran over our time and the folks had another session to go to
still folks lingered around asking the caregiver and i questions about alzheimers
i always would stay for as long as folks had questions
sometimes that would be an extra hour
i always figured that this is what im meant to do as i get older
spread my knowledge ive gained about this awful disease

then that day 
i got to end it as the rain fell on our metal roof and i sat out on our upstairs porch feeling the coolness and relaxing as only this could make you relax

i seized the moment


when i wake up in the morning i usually open up our
downstairs doors all four of them
to let in fresh air
to use the outside cool night air
remember its 3am when i get up every morning
thanks to mr aricept (donepezil) i take since i may
have alzheimers disease

letting in that cool night air for several hours allows the
inside of the house to get a good exchange of stale
inside air with this cool night air

then the sun comes up and we have to reverse things
usually about 1200 pm we close things back up
for another 15 hours of that inside air
then good country air to be let in at 3am again

this am when i got up though it was 80+ degrees
almost suffocating
if youve lived in the deep south you know what im talking
almost syrupy is how it feels when you breathe it in
so i left the doors closed and turned on the air conditioner

this am i had a meeting with a group doing a seminar
on caregiving
where a caregiver and i will be doing two 45 minute seminars
on caregiving and how not to get burned out
doing a question and answer is what we plan to do
she a caregiver now with her alzheimers husband
me a doctor who has cared for those patients
a family member whose mom dad and brother had the disease
now me who may have the disease
three perspectives i offer
and how to be a long distance caregiver
which is easier to do yet harder also

when i was driving to the meeting my air conditioner would
hardly work in the car
i got out and felt the heat and humidity
fogging up my glasses is what happened

i had my meeting then home i went
ate lunch
then lay down for my normal afternoon nap hoping to
gain back my two hours of sleep that the aricept sucked
from me
after about an hour
i heard thunder
then the hail hit the roof
now our roof is an all metal roof
so when hail hits its  loud
i mean real loud
the rain was also hard real hard
then it slowed to that nice pleasant
relaxing rain on that metal roof
that sort of slowly rocked me back to sleep
for another 1 and a half hour more
i felt so refreshed when i awoke
i think it was that mesmerizing lullaby that that metal roof and
that slow rain sung on our roof

then my wife she heard i was awake
she who i think may have hid in our storm shelter shower
opened up the house like i do every morning

in rushed this breath of fresh air
that crispy smell good rainy fresh air
that you can only get after a good hail storm
and after the rain has fallen to cool the outside down
now i sit on our upper deck writing this blog
its after 500pm our wine time
listening to it still raining on our metal roof
it seems it has activated all the animals the birds are
active like they are in the morning
even the deer have come out into our far pasture
a mom and her twin fawns moving across the pasture
the fawns ajumping and playing in the slow rain

so i take a slow deep breath that feels so good going down
a sip of wine
say thanks for this change
from what would have been a miserable day here at the country n

it makes me contemplate a lot sitting here
especially after having spent 2 hours talking about alzheimers disease
and what memories and thoughts that brings up

i am just thankful that im alive and able to enjoy this moment
seized the moment it is what i did

sometimes i will look at my wife she and say
lets seize the moment

that day 
thats what i did
i seized the moment

our first live walk to end alzheimers here in santa barbara since the pandemic started will be on saturday november 5th
here is the link to the walk
my team organicgreendoctor will be activated soon
its our 12th year to do the walk
join us

the organicgreen doctor

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