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i am a family physician who was diagnosed with
early mild cognitive impairment(mci) amnestic type on december 21, 2010
this is a precursor to alzheimers disease
because of this diagnosis i have opted to stop practicing medicine
this blog will be about my journey with this disease
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i will continue blogging on organic gardening, green living,
solar power, rainwater collection, and healthy living
i will blog on these plus other things noted to be interesting

Wednesday, February 24, 2021

my story revisited #76-bad dreams


i always had dreams but since i started on aricept (donepezil) they have become more vivid but usually arent disturbing
last night there were these two big ole monster looking things in our bedroom that were coming after me
i woke up as my pillow crashed against the far wall
knowing they were gone i settled back down for more sleep
thats the life of an aricept dream

usually i dream about being a doctor but last night i didnt 
i just remember those monsters that looked almost halogramish in their appearance

i also know that dreams and acting out them can be a sign that alzheimers can be worsening

it also can be the sign of different type of dementia that could be worse to have
i dont have that one thank goodness

ive learned to deal with these dreams 
at least they arent usually disturbing
those monsters were scary last night

interesting was when i was on some meds for my stomach and my weight loss my dreams become more subdued and less vivid
now that i am off these meds my dreams have reverted back to my normal ones

be aware of this dream phenomena in your loved ones with dementias and who are on meds like aricept (donepezil)

this dream below i described several years ago i do not remember it
im sure after reading that old blog that it was one of my dreams i had
ive written before about my vivid dreams that are caused by
the aricept (donepezil) that i take for my diagnosis of
mild cognitive impairment that may be due to alzheimers disease
and how they are never bad ones

well i had a bad one

last night i was in the denver airport
guess denver because of all the talk about colorados role in
the election as a swing state

i met little abbie and her family there guess because someone
had written me a message that they had read the blog about
her and how it was such an inspiration (her blog is the one of
my popular blog posts on the list to the right of this blog)

i also ran into several patients of mine at the airport
some had medical problems that they needed help with
so i stopped and spent time with them to help them get
the right advice on where to go to get the right care and treatment
for their problems

guess thats because i had a patient a teenager i had talked to
this week about a medical problem she had and was able
to give some advice about what evaluations she needed to have done

i of course have to be careful since i have given up my license and
cant legally practice medicine anymore-thanks to my diagnosis and
my personal choice to end my career

so there i was in the denver airport actually with a group of former
patients that were all flying on the same plane back to austin that
i was to fly on

i use to have an old silver metal briefcase that i got when i was in
college from my historian brother and i used it all the way
through college medical school and my early practice
think something james bond would have carried stuff in in his
early movies
ive since donated it to one of my former patients who needed an
old briefcase for a school project using it as a star wars or something
like that prop

in my dream i put my wallet my cell phone my jacket and my airline
ticket in that old briefcase
i sat it down as i ordered a drink
when i got ready to board the plane i couldnt find my briefcase

so there i was in the denver airport without a wallet or id without a
cellphone without a ticket and if you are like me you have no idea
of anyones cell phone numbers
i know mine and our home number and no one elses
not even my wife shes number

what was i going to do

what i did was woke up suddenly and couldnt go back to sleep
i had wanted to finish this dream to get a better outcome

bad dream
i just hope that my dreams dont get worse over time
sometimes there is medication that is given to slow down the acting out of dreams if they get too unmanageable

in the meantime
i usually just enjoy them

the organicgreen doctor

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